Way of Cross in it's True Self - A Video by Me

A small initiative by me to understand the real sacrifice of Jesus Christ.  A sacrifice to be observed truly and not just as rituals and processions

Who has to understand me than myself?

Parents, relations, Wife and then later with friends, and also with the people I called the "beloved ones or dearest" the same case remained. Nobody understood the real me.

Actually I didn't achieved anything except the hatred of everybody, friends, relations, wife, parents and the other whom I call "dearest".

Its rather a human feeling that I need to be understood and recognized by my fellow human beings. In fact I belong to the same human category. This question often pops up in my mind "Why he/she is not understanding me?" Let it be with my mother or father, else my wife or friends, whoever it may be, I always felt this need of understanding from others.

I was a too curious young human, as the name suggests, when I was young. I wanted to know many things, I wanted to learn many things. I wanted to learn karate, music, keyboard, dancing, horse riding etc., :-) I was so active, wondered how this world is filled with so many wonders as this one life is not enough at all. I wanted to be recognized from whatever skill I acquire. Mentally I needed support. I know I have given them enough. But a universal concept is Love is unconditional. But knowing that still I longed for something. A understanding of the real me, the "What I am and What do I want to do?"

But things don't happen in the same way as we think of it. Right? If it happened so then I would not be in the condition in which I am now.

Christ in his truest sense...!!!

So lets make it clear. You are Christ's Follower or Christian Follower?

I was discussing with one of my young friend. I mean he is younger than me and with full of speculations and own opinions in his mind. I usually gather with such young fellows and have a discussion, because their nature of opening up their mind with their own questions. It is the concept of “Ask, You will answered”. When our mind opens up with whatever it have seeking the right answer, then the answer which is already there will reach us or in the right term, it will be known to us. In case I am not trying to say that I am providing them with answers, but it when triggers my inner self which always seeks with hell a lot of questions, then in one or other way I will also get answer. It is a mutual endeavor. The following is one such a discussion.

He: Anna, I am a born Christian, I used to go to church regularly, but stopped at one moment, I don't know why. It may be because I don't like the happenings there or else I feel something more beyond is there. But the people around me says that I am “sinning” by this activity. Is that a sin, anna? But I am a true christian follower.

Me: What are you trying to say? Lets make it clear once for all. Are you a Christian Follower or Christ's Follower. I think both differ in its own sense. Christianity is the name or term which has been given to the people who are said to be following Christ. I agree. But now the term refers clearly those who follows the methodologies, an organised structure formulated by the Higher Authoritarian Church, in the base of its dogmas and rituals etc.,

So lets make it clear. You are Christ's Follower or Christian Follower?

Duality - The act of Pretense in day to day life

Is it possible to work with honesty in our day to day life? With colleagues, with bosses, with relationship etc., If I pretend is it not like cheating oneself or GOD or Supreme Being himself. 

An interesting dialogue went on between me and my friend, later with couple of people at Krishnamurti Foundation India, in analyzing whether the honesty of proper "ME" is possible out of philosophy and whether it could be applied in our day to day life. I put forward the question as I am victim of that so called "Honesty and Duality".

I was honest to my students, when I taught, unlike that other technical jargonists, who knew nothing but making money and making fun of others. I was honest to my HOD and the college management, when others were just pretending. But later when I discovered, I was betrayed and condemned by these collective people called the "Society" - the bullish "society", this question arouse in me, whether it is possible to live with honesty in mind and still pretend as something else, more or less a hypocrite.

Defining Success

A society which defines a role or rule, when that becomes a hurdle for itself, it will again tend to redefine it according to the newest needs. 

Life cannot be at ease always as we desire. We cannot neglect the desires too. So what is the connection between desires and success. I'm longing for someone to call me a successful person. But I know no one would. Then the longing shall have to cease. Does success means as what is defined by the society? Does it means materialistic benefit? Does it means a luxurious car? Does it mean an accomplishment and promotion in the social status? Does it mean we become a public speaker admired by many? Does it mean holding some president post somewhere in an institution? Does it mean the technological accomplishment?

It can be anyone of this or all of this. But is that the real meaning or definition of success. When analyzing the scenarios in deep, I understood only one thing, not the matter whether it is big or small, if a conflict arises from an accomplishment which leads us to sorrow, then merely it cannot be defined as success itself. Am I not right? We run for money, to build a new house, to buy Mercedes, to keep us physically healthy, but after all do we have the necessary happiness and peace. There are many who are living with conflicts, though they are financially sound. So how come materialistic benefit and advancement is success?

Life will continue until there is hope...

Name, Fame and Money..In the Name of Lord..

Lenten Season 2012 is on...many people are busy with their fasting, church ceremonies, preparations etc., Many years back I don't know what is this "Lent"? But when I came more closer to Christ I understood what it is and What exactly it is for. I am not a born christian, a christian never have to. Whoever follows Christ Truly are True Christians. Underline and Understand this word Truly.

In life in many circumstances, with many people I underwent a similar situation or a similar discussion after I become a True Follower of Christ. Principles of Jesus won't suit current day's living.

Shamelessly a person in a presiding position of a Christian Organisation said this once to me, " I am a Catholic Christian, but still I have to give up his sayings at times and act as a complete businessman". 

My Pain may be the reason for somebody's Laugh

After years I just tried something with my photo retouching skills using Photoshop. A skill put into coffin box years ago. Just had a trial with my photo itself. Inspired by a Hard but True thought while reading his bio-graphy, Charlie Chaplin, the genius and his off screen life is almost forgotten. What a kind of life is this??? So true words it is not so easy to make others laugh, while one is simply crying inside, he did it and inspires me to do the same. I'm just trying to imitate him in the looks, but follow his role-model in real life.

My First Book "Letters to My Unborn Daughter"

Femininity itself is like a flower. The fragrance of it alone will bring ecstasy. It has to be admired. It has to be protected. 

Happy Woman's Day

I always admire the beauty called femininity. A miracle of the world.At the same time while seeing the trouble they have or face in day to day life, I often think, why do such being should be existent. But when their real potential is understood and if they do things in the right way, they are way ahead to be the supreme power of the world. But this could be only a dream in the male dominant world. As a male I should be ashamed of it.

I managed to write my first book. First print published book. Thanks to my publisher friend. I wanted hardly to release this on this day, a compilation of what I would say to my daughter. But the reality is I'm not yet blessed with a child, any child even after years of marriage. Women do read it. You can also opt for buying in the print version for just Rs.50, seriously money making is not my intention. Just happy to release my first book to spread this message which I feel as necessary to the real "Woman Empowerment".  These are just but common things but discussed in a man's perspective. Don't expect extraordinary discussions.

Here is the link to download : http://bit.ly/y4CKa6

If anybody there to support my efforts, buy the print version. If you need a print version or ff you have any critics after reading please mail me at avr.thecreator@ymail.com

Wondering who is Seetharaman Narayanan?

We always wondered who is SEETHARAMAN NARAYANAN in Photoshop Splash Screen. I started noticing his name in the splash screen of Photoshop right from the days when I started using version 4.0. Here is a video

Now my question is how many wanted to achieve something like that. I will raise my hands if you ask the same question. We see celebs at some heights. Some feel it as heights unreachable. Some are lazy. All heights are achievable if we start taking steps one by one. Right?