Whoever visits me or talks to me, as an act of consolation tries to convince me with the words "Forget the Past. Its over. Work out something for the future". Though I am not completely disagreeing with these terms I have something to say. An unpleasant past have to be forgotten for sure. It will do it itself as time passes by. Time is the best medicine for any wound to be healed. Mental or Physical. At the same time if one forgets what caused the whole trauma then likely he is going to face the same kind of situation sooner or later.
In my case it is all about the most unpleasant moments I had with my students whom I taught who lastly betrayed me, took chance to collapse my business, made everything upside down what I have gained so far. It is easy for anybody to play the blame game. Many are not bothered or aware of the sequences. Their
immature acts of betrayal made me close my business losing all my investment of about Rs.45 lakhs, made my friends foe, made my beloved people to move away, flopped the conifdence what others had on me, put my reputation I gained in my past down, all of which increased my blood pressure and made me to suffer from hemi paresis and other trauma, put me in months of hospitalization, some weeks in ICU in coma, in turn more expenses to my parents beyond what they could earn in their life and that what I have lost in business. Still upto this moment nothing turned out positive. No financial gains, not even one kind word from those who moved away, Not even a single recognition for what steps I have taken.
In this scenario What do I have to forget? Do I have to forget the aching mind and body which were caused by this? Do I have to forget the weak left side which is not allowing me to walk even now?Or Do I have to forget My Mother's tears which rolled on when I got paralysis? Do I have to forget my father's pain in gathering the money required to pay the hospital bills which is ten times of his annual income? What and Who is responsible for this? People at upper level play with money and technology, but what if others cannot? How can I be able to forget my days in ICU when I cannot even drink a drop of water for my thirsty throat and dry tongue?
If I cannot put the blame on others then it surely I who done the mistake. Because others are so happy with their current endeavors. I cannot even smile from my heart. Nothing to think in present as happy moments. Flopped as zero and locked in a hundred and fifty sq.ft. room. So it is must for me to think about the past to learn from my mistakes to be cautious in the future.
If we are not cautious about the present conscious with what we experienced in the past, then what goodness it would do in the future.
When America attacked Hiroshima and Nagasaki with the Intention that they should not rise again, It is the challenge of Japanese which made them excel in the fields of technology without depending on anybody. They made their mind to learn from their mistakes and took it as a challenge. When there is not even a single place for Jews to Hide, it is only their will to learn from their mistakes which is still occupying the whole world politics.
Wound will heal while time passes but the marks it remains is still painful. I must actually learn from the causes which made this. Forget the unpleasant past but use the current moment for not getting a situation worse like that of the past, by remembering the pain it created and the cause of the pain. It will surely lead to excellence tomorrow without anymore blunders. That is the actual challenge.
In my case it is all about the most unpleasant moments I had with my students whom I taught who lastly betrayed me, took chance to collapse my business, made everything upside down what I have gained so far. It is easy for anybody to play the blame game. Many are not bothered or aware of the sequences. Their
immature acts of betrayal made me close my business losing all my investment of about Rs.45 lakhs, made my friends foe, made my beloved people to move away, flopped the conifdence what others had on me, put my reputation I gained in my past down, all of which increased my blood pressure and made me to suffer from hemi paresis and other trauma, put me in months of hospitalization, some weeks in ICU in coma, in turn more expenses to my parents beyond what they could earn in their life and that what I have lost in business. Still upto this moment nothing turned out positive. No financial gains, not even one kind word from those who moved away, Not even a single recognition for what steps I have taken.
In this scenario What do I have to forget? Do I have to forget the aching mind and body which were caused by this? Do I have to forget the weak left side which is not allowing me to walk even now?Or Do I have to forget My Mother's tears which rolled on when I got paralysis? Do I have to forget my father's pain in gathering the money required to pay the hospital bills which is ten times of his annual income? What and Who is responsible for this? People at upper level play with money and technology, but what if others cannot? How can I be able to forget my days in ICU when I cannot even drink a drop of water for my thirsty throat and dry tongue?
If I cannot put the blame on others then it surely I who done the mistake. Because others are so happy with their current endeavors. I cannot even smile from my heart. Nothing to think in present as happy moments. Flopped as zero and locked in a hundred and fifty sq.ft. room. So it is must for me to think about the past to learn from my mistakes to be cautious in the future.
If we are not cautious about the present conscious with what we experienced in the past, then what goodness it would do in the future.
When America attacked Hiroshima and Nagasaki with the Intention that they should not rise again, It is the challenge of Japanese which made them excel in the fields of technology without depending on anybody. They made their mind to learn from their mistakes and took it as a challenge. When there is not even a single place for Jews to Hide, it is only their will to learn from their mistakes which is still occupying the whole world politics.
Wound will heal while time passes but the marks it remains is still painful. I must actually learn from the causes which made this. Forget the unpleasant past but use the current moment for not getting a situation worse like that of the past, by remembering the pain it created and the cause of the pain. It will surely lead to excellence tomorrow without anymore blunders. That is the actual challenge.
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