A day before once again I was occupied with a heavy breathing suffocation, some physiological discomfort leaving my nostrils closed, no in and out oxygen, trying to breath heavily but no way. Having nobody around me to help, I thought its going to be the end. My heart pounced and raced as if I was driving a McLaren.
Real Question my mind asked was, if this is going to be your last few minutes, what will you do. I was helpless. I wanted to talk with my beloved ones. I wanted to hear voices. I wanted to eat my favorite chicken dishes. I wanted to make sure the venture I have started once again to be in the right place. I wanted to make sure my "Angelo" will create history. Lots and Lots. Heavy and heavy, my fingers running fast in my touchscreen mobile. Yes I know I'm dying here. For the first time in my life I'm praying, "elongate my life little bit more, I have some duties to do, I have to fulfill my promises".
But what if it was an end? I'm going through it. Many people often think, let us do it in the future. I will fix up my broken relationship tomorrow. I will achieve one or other day. I will earn money and abundant wealth soon.
I will... I will.. I will... WHO NEEDS THIS I WILL FOR I KNOW ONLY I'M LIVING NOW. IF HUMANS REALLY UNDERSTAND THIS ONE, THOUGH HOPE OF LIVING TOMORROW IS THERE REMAINING ONLY AS HOPE, A PROBABILITY, REALITY IS I'M LIVING NOW. I WILL IS ONLY A DREAM AN ILLUSION, CANNOT ALWAYS BE A REALITY.
On realization of this one, there will be true fruitful life with fruitful relationships. But ever in this world of devils hands its not going to happen. Many like me have to die with agony.
THE TIME I GOT TO WRITE THIS I CAN CALL THE BREATHING GAP. Hell with this life of vanity....!!!!
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