Am I a cynic?

A Cynic is a man who know the price of everything and the value of nothing. - Oscar Wilde

I don't always try to put blame on others for my own failures. I never intended to.  If then I may be a cynic. I very well know no one else is the reason for my own failures in my endeavors. Experience always makes every human perfect. I always wondered whether I try to find faults on others for my own mistakes. But the answer in my realization is no. I have done zero analysis many times, the finding is same. I never play blame game, but only can't tolerate when others do the same on me.

I am walking in my own path of life. No human tried to understand that I too have emotions, feelings and all that rubbish sense what a human have. When others intend to put the blame or cast the burden on me, I feel I am weak in one or other way to bear it. The losses wealth wise, Financial, interpersonal relationship losses everything makes me weak. If I have to get rid of all those things then I might have to leave all humanly thoughts. I am not always skeptical about those things. But I do wonder always why others do this. I wonder why they are so keen in suppressing others, make them depressed only for being so true to them. The outcome even in these posts in my blog are results of the outburst of that honesty.

Its not that Live and Let Live. Its Let Live and Live Properly. Don't make anyone scapegoats for one's own mistakes. Don't ever offer a goat as a sacrifice to God for getting relieved for your own mistakes.

AT ANY COST I AM NOT A FAULT FINDER. I AM JUST A REALIST. I UNDERSTAND ALL HAVE THEIR OWN SET OF FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS. BUT I JUST WANT OTHERS ALSO TO UNDERSTAND I TOO A HUMAN WITH MY OWN SET OF THE SO CALLED FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS!!

How much Can you eat Computers, Cameras or Human Bodies....

Petty human mind don't stop at anything. So cunning, so irrational. When I did the lecturer job, I did my level best to teach them what I know. Nobody know how my employer juiced up my skills and victimized me for the same. If they have sent some specialist in one area to accompany me, then I would have been saved from all these humbugs. But no one is going to understand I taught them wholeheartedly spending full time for them itself.

But the recent reward from the one from the HUMAN, who has not quenched the thirst drinking my blood, who wants my dead body too, to eat, have recently send me a mail of this pic

An added statement " I thought you know everything, but I understood you knew nothing".

I am not hesitant to state this. Because if I am timid that my value will go, tomorrow these pranks will eat some other. Is he talking about the technical skills? Any sill idiot can teach technology. As I said earlier, sleep well with computers, cameras, well with anybody they like. How much they can be able to eat these things.

Is the technical know-how, the worldly knowledge? I know very well even if Walt-Disney himself comes and teaches animation or George Lucas Visual Effects, this damn idiot won't learn anything.

The problem is with the family and educational institution, whose selection is all for money. But the victims are somebody else, Like me Being a single person who tried to teach serving Humanity to them. No other Illusionist Magician or Effect Technician have done this, there in that college. What I taught is not Magic or Techniques, but Life itself, out of my own experiences.

The actual problem is with the friends and class mates who supported or supports these people. Who the heck are they, silly humans, living for bodily pleasure?

ONE HAPPENED WHEN I WAS IN COLLEGE ITSELF, THE NEXT TO SHUT DOWN MY BUSINESS, THE NEXT TO PUT ME IN THE STATE OF HEMI-PARESIS, NOW AGAIN. THESE VAMPIRES WON'T STOP. WORLD IS WITH DEVIL. BUT NOT FOR LONG TIME....

LET THE COSMIC LAWS ANSWER........

Will Struggle with Flight for Humanity until the Last Feather falls...

THAT WAS AND IS MY ULTIMATE GOAL IN LIFE. DO SOMETHING FOR FELLOW BEINGS AND DIE. I WILL STRUGGLE MY LEVEL BEST UNTIL MY LAST FEATHER FALLS AND LOOSE MY FLIGHT. NO MATTER I AM ALONE.

Loneliness kills. But in another sense, it is better to be alone than to be with people who can't understand us. I'm isolating myself. But still the thirst to fetch the needs of "humanity" is there. I know it is for these same humans who betrayed and condemned me for nothing. The reasons which are baked up by themselves. Now I'm left with nobody for one noble cause I fight for.

People often wants technological accomplishments, pleasure drives, pleasure party's, everything momentary. They call it life. All is well if contained in limit. What about a person who is ambitious, who wants to achieve something globally. Not just in some technical field or to be a celebrity, but I was ambitious to do something for something in greater sense - Humanity.

If I talk about greater wider areas of myriad colors, Music, Big Movie making, VFX works, people applauded. When I asked them to stop the aspects of momentary pleasure and work for Humanity, they cursed. But people go to temple, church, mosques pray to god, pretending praying for others, but in action nothing.

SICK OF HUMANS. THEY DECEIVE GOD, THEY DECEIVE THEMSELVES, THEY DECEIVE OTHERS.

Beyond my ambition of becoming a technical jargon, a big blockbuster movie maker, an animator anything you can name it, my ultimate ambition in my life is to SERVE HUMANITY. I even wanted to become a celebrity only to serve this purpose. Because when I say with empty hands nobody hears.

There will be thousands, and of course there are thousands who are technologically sound, sleep with computers, sleep with whatever they like. But how much of people are doing this,

• sponsoring orphan children who are really in need, when one's income is too low to sustain his family.
• mould up individuals to realize themselves, their skills and to live in a better way without conflicts.
• seek the Truth about God, not just what religious institutions teach or preach.
• mingle the real cosmological facts and philosophies, and live according to that.
• cries for the fellow being who is really suffering in the neighborhood.
• worries and do the needful for the abandoned old age people.
• Tries to give education in a proper way to proper hands.

All I wanted to do is this. I currently do this all together. Sometimes sound crazy.

One can do Illusional Magic, Illusional Screen Effects, Animate Puppets, Talk freely about erotica but petty selfishness and conning others are ditching acts. Actually I don't want to express myself like this, but I wonder why people talk what they don't know actually.

I always wanted to serve humanity, what I do only I say, What I say only I will always do. With this post is a scan of the document of registration of a Charitable Trust IN THE YEAR 2006 I started in my most beloved Grandma's name, for the sake of humanity. THAT WAS AND IS MY ULTIMATE GOAL IN LIFE. DO SOMETHING FOR FELLOW BEINGS AND DIE. I WILL STRUGGLE MY LEVEL BEST UNTIL MY LAST FEATHER FALLS AND LOOSE MY FLIGHT. NO MATTER I AM ALONE.